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wWednesday, July 31 go do what you have to do what you want to you don't feel the same you can't see a way... but maybe just maybe... somewhere down the road find your happiness... while i try and find mine but maybe just maybe... it'd be me... your feeling's have changed why haven't mine? maybe you never... felt the same in the first place felt what i felt fell like i fell... but maybe just maybe... you did the same... those 3 words... were uttered and now i understand why they shouldn't... be played with... and i was thinkin what if i'm lying to myself so whatever... cuz maybe just maybe... i've been playing the fool all along 7/31/02 10.30pm posted by josh at 10:28:00 PM w i haven't been blogging in a while... thanks to all who came out on my bday... faylc was okay... got my present charlotte/diane/catherine made for me...finally... got my car... other stuff i'd rather not talk about... taken from the gift given to me today..."the greatest risk is not taking one." but whatever... posted by josh at 10:07:00 PM w i would now like to add Batsu-Ichi to my list of big rocks, that is all.. posted by billy at 7:34:00 PM w big rocks: love, happiness, inspiration, and helping, included in that is my family, my friends, cynthia, my future, music, photography, God, spirituality, and doing what i can for other ppl. posted by billy at 11:09:00 AM wTuesday, July 30 jus a question for everyone, what do you consider the big rocks in your life? i'll answer soon too. posted by billy at 5:07:00 PM w thats a really good thing to think about helen. the only hard thing is figuring out whats a big rock and whats a pebble in your life. posted by billy at 5:07:00 PM w didn't he pour water inside of it after the sand?... heres a thing about lying:: one day two friends went out on vacation...they overstayed their visit and realized they had missed their final in a class....they both came up with the idea to tell the teacher that their tire had gotten a flat...so they begged and pleaded with the teacher to let them take the final, but he asked..."are you guys lying?"...."no" was the obvious answer....so he let them....but he separated them...in two different rooms....and gave them each two envelopes....one said "open first"...the other "open last"...so they opened up the first envelope...the answer was a piece of cake...they answered it with ease...but when the second envelope was opened...it said..."which tire was flat?" haha...so yea...if that doesn't make sense...ask me.... so...don't lie...or if you do...make sure you know which tire was flat...or better yet....don't miss your finals... posted by josh at 2:40:00 AM wThursday, July 25 aloe vera! im white, i know! posted by billy at 4:33:00 PM w don't get sunburned in the first place... posted by josh at 4:12:00 PM wWednesday, July 24 bappy hirthday josh! posted by billy at 11:04:00 AM w hahaha...you boon...spell it correctly...dillon...and i always wanted to name my daughter jessica..before i even met you jesska...haha...helen can vouch for me... so i turn onto elk grove florin....and waht gives out?...my fuckin transmission....bunch of shit...so i had to coast my ass home...going like 15 miles an hour down calvine...oh well....i test drove a lancer and a sentra spec v today...and omfg....give me the freakin sentra already....damn that's a nice car... oh well...no one blogs anymore.... posted by josh at 2:05:00 AM wTuesday, July 23 hahaha...random thoughts of scary movie nights... "SHAFT!" - rambo "...ykno he's got shotgun..." - rambo... "makes your ankles hurt" - matt "omg omg paul what the hell is that?!" - matt...aaaaaaahahahahhahaha posted by josh at 12:37:00 AM wMonday, July 22 sometimes things are more, than they appear... that's what friends do....they forgive each other my cars clean...but there's something wrong with it...anyway...i'll do that word thing one day... posted by josh at 2:38:00 AM wFriday, July 19 haha, cynthia let me borrow this book called "uprooting racism", im reading it right now, thats why it came to mind, and i was thinking of her anyways. i could have jus put "word...cynthia..." but i thought i should stretch it out a little. posted by billy at 9:08:00 AM w still haven't tied a cherry stem into a knot...i think i tried it at prom...and nearly choked...=D....prom...memories...damn...jus about 5 months... anyway....spent the day with jesska......supposed to watch lilo n stitch....but *shrug*...we WILL watch it...=)....and mikey and his uranus....haha...and matt and his..."i want pearls...no i dont....well....maybe....& quit checking out my sister" self (hahahahaha)..... i thought i was gonna write more but apparently i'm wrong.... oh yea....san diego's basically filipino...haha...i like it down there....hills....open roads/freeways...everyone drives 85-90...except in the fog....the fog was a bitch....couldn't see a damn thing except for the white line on the road.....but i didn't see a single chp car when i was down there around christmas/new years....anyway....have a fun summer... posted by josh at 2:07:00 AM wThursday, July 18 i think i'll go off the word known as word word...book...uprooting racism...cynthia...beautiful...art...creation...evolution...monkey...scopes...history...mr. byrd...ap test...good job...accomplishment...success...happiness...cynthia...love...powerful...word! hmm, not bad. that killed a good amount of time. peace and love.. posted by billy at 6:48:00 PM wTuesday, July 16 it appears as if there's nothing interesting enough to talk about... oh well... i have interesting stuff to talk about...but i don't feel like putting it on the blog...ask me on aim if you're that desperate to know haha...anyway...you guys have a great summer.....*cough* 24th of july?! *uncough* posted by josh at 7:43:00 PM wSaturday, July 13 FOUR! haha... hmMm...did jesska predict it at blue moon?...=D posted by josh at 1:17:00 PM wTuesday, July 9 "love" love i stare at the word delete it type it again not wanting to admit my feelings hiding beneath my skin such a funny word isn't it? or is it just me? what is it? webster should know right? the feeling within when i feel your touch that can't be it never forget it not a chance how can this be? how can it be that you mean so much more to me love jonathan reyes 2-20-01 posted by josh at 2:34:00 AM wSunday, July 7 DAMN that's all you need to know... posted by josh at 12:53:00 PM w man, i've had that conversation so many times. i always thought that first was making out, tongue included. second is fondeling the areas that aren't normally touched. and third is making out with the areas not normally made out with. however, cynthia told me that third is like dry sex or grinding. to me, that would come before fondelling, but oh well. i use her definition though. ok, there u have it. peace and love. posted by billy at 8:35:00 AM wFriday, July 5 life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences ... but rather it's a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan... ultimately, if we are to live life in harmony with the universe.. we must all possess a powerful faith in what the ancients used to call "fatim" ...what we currently.. refer to.. as destiny... --what movie's that from jesska?...=D posted by josh at 2:15:00 AM wThursday, July 4 =\ wow...i'm jus pissin everyone off aren't i?... due to concern [thanks for your concern =D...it means a lot] this post has been edited... my day was fine...=) posted by josh at 12:14:00 AM wTuesday, July 2 ok...name thing fixed...=) "The only place you're going to always find a helping hand is at the end of your own arm" posted by josh at 4:33:00 PM w at least i'm not crazy.. anyway....since this name issue seems to be bugging everyone...until it's fixed...can yall put yer name at the bottom of your posts?... joShEe =) posted by josh at 12:36:00 PM w ok..i must talk to some people about certain things...concerning...certain issues... i want to go but somethings come over me i'm drawn back into this... feeling... i know i can't do this forever but everytime i try i jus feel like... i'm turning my back on you... split in two mind n heart... who knows what's to come... good or bad, no one can say but what if some... something happens... and yet i've taken a different path but there are too many what ifs.. too many possibilities too many open doors... too much... too many to grasp to comprehend and choose... i can't pretend to be... i can't pretend to see.. i can't force these feelings.. *looks around*....sigh... 12.26am 7/1/02 posted by josh at 12:25:00 AM wMonday, July 1 .............. posted by josh at 4:21:00 AM w "aaannnnnd anoda ting..." - alfro imitating 'uncle' on jackie chan... i'm torn between conflicting thoughts and feelings - 0.o...you're fucking stupid - why the fuck are you gonna move on? - just dont talk to her - why the hell do you even bother? - starbucks? - i guess you never will know... ...................fortune cookies... you are contemplative and analytical by nature ...................fortune cookies... .....funny how we give advice but we would never follow it ourselves..... Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense. posted by josh at 1:00:00 AM w ok... alright i'm tired of seeing stuff happen...*shrug*..this is how i see it... honestly...it doesn't take 238745 people to fix the problems that 3 people can fix if they really need to...but it seems like everyone just seems to be jumping to conclusions...i dont care if you got his back er not...let them fix their probs..ykno?.."if you got nothin to say that can fix the problem then don't say it at all..." ..if they can't handle it like grown ups that's their problem...deal with it...why is everyone frontin like they know the whole story too?...get the whole story...can you guys not sit down and talk about this?...or is that not possible?....are your ego's too big for a chair??...i mean...if someone fronts...why are you gonna argue back?..why doesn't someone be the bigger man and talk about this calmly?...if it doesnt involve you...why are you gonna get involved? another thing...about our friend who invites herself before?...i mean...if you don't like something about her...honestly i think you should just tell her....i'm guilty of this too..but i dunno..i got over it...i mean...get to kno her if you want..if yall don't want to then don't..i can't force you to do anything..*shrug*..but wouldn't you want to know why someone hates you?...what if you got hated on...and you don't even know why?...how are you gonna help them stop doing what annoys you about them if they dont know what to fix?...knawmean?... ykno i think everyone passes judgement too fast...but yall need to take a step back and look at what's going on...reality check yourself...is it really something yall need to trip over so much?...i shouldn't have to be writing about this but it's getting to everyone...i mean...some of the shit i jus said in here is a bit hypocritical cuz of my actions...but i'm gonna step back from everything...and jus look at the whole situation...nah it's not simple...if anything the whole situations complicated... ...think of me for being stupid for even writing this...think what you want...take it for what it's worth...print it out...piss on it....burn it...break your monitor..read the disclaimer again... but if you hate on me for what i think...if you dont agree then woopty doo for you...you got opinions and i'm willing to talk to you rationally...don't come up to me like "what the fuck is your problem"...honestly...whats YOUR problem if you ever come up on me like that...come to me civilized and with your opinions, your thoughts, your concerns, your questions...or don't come at all... "listening is one thing but understanding may be the answer..." --- understand where i'm comin from... posted by josh at 12:12:00 AM